Yesterday, while practically doing nothing because I am just waiting for the go signal of my boss whether to push thru on my implementation or not, I visited one of my best friend’s blogmate’s blog. I’ve been a follower of “Fresh Mess” for few months now without knowing him actually. I always visited my favorite blogs every morning before starting my day work. And I am really having so much fun reading all his posts. Though we don’t know each other personally or even online, I am somehow beginning to know him little by little by his posts which I think one of the reasons of blogging… To share and let others know your thoughts.

I began to get snoopy on his latest post about this one guy named David Eric Poarch, a Filipino-American who decided to go back to the Philippines to find his purpose in life. I recalled Neil also mentioned this guy to me a long time ago. This guy also has his own blog “Coconuter”. To satisfy my curiosity, I started to read his blog one entry at a time. Little did I realize that I was already reading his entire blog! From the introduction, resume, ‘til every single entry he posted. To be honest, I was moved, I was touched, that I kept thinking about it until now. I even reminded myself to visit his blog today which I did. I don’t know but I felt sincerity on his writings.

Emotionally stressful life experiences, it's like the feeling you get after watching a very dramatic and sad movie, that’s how to describe it. Maybe I am a bit emotional about it because I see myself in him. Maybe not on the same intensity and adversity, but the objective is somehow alike, because like him I am still in search about my purpose in life.

I chose to live my life far away from my family and friends, to live in a new environment - to learn how to live on my own. Like him, I wanted to pursue my happiness and liberty. For a moment, I was reminded about those questions that I keep asking myself. I can't believe that for months now, I was already here in another country busy with work, with my materialistic thoughts, my so-called single life that I actually forget to reflect and breathe. I miss my family, my funny friends, and even my chaotic life with my siblings back home. But I chose to live right here, right now so I just have to experience everything in life… from the sweetest stroke of own-sovereignty to the bitterest taste of living independently, and practically doing everything on my own. Every man has his own battle, and for each step we take, should be a learning experience. Oftentimes, I need to be reminded.

Soon, I hope to travel and see the other part of the world. And I know I need all the courage, strength, and confidence to do that. I’ve done that when I resigned with my previous work. I chose to leave my comfort zone in exchange with greener pasture and liberty. So I know I can do that again in the right time.

Soon, I hope to be in a so-called “real” relationship, and that also need all the courage, strength, and confidence. Soon, I will be making major decisions in my life, and it will need all of them too. And when I get there, I will always remember the story of him.

"It's not enough to have a dream, unless you're willing to pursue it.
It's not enough to know what's right, unless you're strong enough to do it.
It's not enough to learn the truth, unless you also learn to live it.
It's not enough to reach for love, unless you care enough to give it.
Men who are resolved to find a way for themselves will always find opportunities enough; and if they do not find them, they will make them."

- Samuel Smiles

Date Scribed: December 22, 2006